Doing nothing

Just popping in to say hello.  This week has been a complete write-off!  DH and I ended up sick, and I was in bed ALL freaking week long.  Seriously, I went into work for an hour on Tuesday (for a client who did not show) and then missed an interview on Wednesday, a full day of work on Thursday, my yoga class in the evening, dinner plans on Friday and hanging out with a friend on Saturday.  I was sick, sick, sick!  It's been a while since I've been sick like that.  The doctor said it was bordering on bronchitis, but I saw him after things had somewhat improved so it may have been bronchitis.  Yuck!

It was so weird having the full week off and doing absolutely nothing.  So far with my time off, I've managed to keep myself busy.  And by busy, I mean doing things, but at a nice leisurely pace.  I haven't been bored at all.  This last week, though, I literally sat on the couch watching TV and slept in bed.  I didn't do cleaning or organizing.  I didn't cook or bake.  I didn't even want to knit or sew.  Pretty much absolutely nothing.  I really don't like doing nothing.  I feel like this week was just a waste of time...  I am really bad at doing nothing.  It's kind of funny, but even for my days off, I have to "plan" down-time for myself.  Otherwise I'll always find something to do.  I'm trying to break out of that a bit, so this week was good in a way.

I really have no idea what this next week holds.  I honestly don't have a single thing on my agenda (apart from my 1 1/2 days of work).  So here's to feeling better and learning how to do nothing!

The era of Club Penguin

I am sick this week.  Like dreadful head cold, sinus pressure, drippy nose, sore body sick.  I haven't really accomplished anything.  Tomorrow I have to go into work so I hope this is gone.

I've been itching to write, but with my head all fogged up, there is nothing coming to me.  So I thought I'd share something for fun.

I had the amazing experience of working for and being a part of the growth of Club Penguin, a kids online interactive game that was eventually purchased by Disney.  Yes, I worked for Disney!  It was so much fun and one of the best experiences of my life.  Today Club Penguin turned 7.  In honour of their birthdate, they released the first part of a documentary the founders are creating.  I feel so privileged to have been a part of something so exciting!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RCWzhQNg7SY

You can check out the game at www.clubpenguin.com (Right now there is an awesome Halloween party going on!  Even I was having fun playing along).

Random musings

Happy Saturday to you!  I have been following along in blogland, but haven't felt much like writing.  Today I thought I'd share my random thoughts as to where I am at right now.

Overall, I'm feeling much better than the first week off of work (when we went away).  It was like we had to go down to the depths of our sorrow in order to come back out again.  This past week was nice. I just worked 2 days, and I thoroughly enjoyed the rest of the time off.  I organized the house.  I knit.  I sewed.  I went to the gym.  I connected with some friends.  I read and listened to some talks online.  I applied for E.I. (hey, why not?).  I realized, though, that I need to plan some sort of schedule for myself.  Even getting up at a consistent time makes me feel WAY better and productive in my days.  Today, for instance, we slept in (I've been fighting a bad cold) and threw off our routine.  We had "brunch" at noon and I just finally showered at 3:00.  That makes it feel like the day is almost over and I haven't done anything.  That does not make me happy.  I am trying to learn, though, how to be content even if I don't accomplish something in my day.  I have a hard time just "being" and I always want to be "doing" something.  This time off is a good challenge for me.

DH and I are slowly doing better together.  He is still super stressed out about a lot of things, but he is trying not to let his feelings towards me be influenced by that stress (particularly in regards to my family and all the new babies there).  We had a date night this week.  We worked to respect one another and be "in love" again.

On that note, I wish I could just get rid of the hope of trying to be pregnant once and for all.  Yesterday was CD14 (I'm not counting, but looked it up just to check).  DH and I were feeling intimate and had a good old time (actually, that's a few times this week).  I had to look up the day I was on, and when I saw that it fell within my fertile window, I could not help but get my hopes up!  I know they will be dashed once AF shows up... but it's like I can't help hoping.  Maybe, after 6 years of TTC on our own... 3 IUIs... one miscarriage.... it just might magically happen this month!  I know that is bullshit.  Go away hope, go away!!!

I am really liking my time off.  I have an interview next week (just for one day of work/week), but I almost don't want to go.  I think this time and space is really important for me right now.  I have been eating healthy and getting my body back again.  My emotions seem to be leveling out.  DH needs me to be there to support him through his stressful time.  Maybe things can just stay as they are...

Right now my time still seems full and busy.  I have a list of things to tackle at my own pace.  Once that list is done though, I don't know how I'll feel.  Maybe I'll just wait until then and see.

Has anyone else noticed there have been a lot of BFPs in blogworld lately?

As happy as I am for those people, I just can't help but think, "why not me???"

Remembering

Today is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. Let's take some time to remember the babies who were born asleep, or whom we carried but never met, or those we have held but could not take home, or the ones who made it home, but didn't stay. Light a candle tonight at 7pm if you or someone you know has suffered pregnancy or infant loss. Break the silence.

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

I'm sure you'll be hearing a lot about this through blogs this week, but I just found out that Oct. 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.  I think this is a great thing to bring awareness to.  There is nothing specific going on in my area on that day, but I want to make note of it, both on my blog and on Facebook.  This will be the first time I have publicly posted something drawing awareness to infertility/loss, but I think it is important.  I'll also light a candle in honour of all the babes that have been lost.  I'll let you know how it goes.

For now, happy weekend!

Sad and happy

Hi everyone,

Just wanted to say a quick hello since it's been a while since I posted.  DH and I got away for a couple of nights this week.  I can't say it was the best "vacation" we've been on, but it included some well-needed rest and down time (even if that down time involved tears and being sad, oh, and a visit from AF...wonderful!).  We came home a day early because we were both sick and just wanted to be home.  As much as we needed the time away, I think being so isolated just made us both depressed.  It's nice to be home!

Here are a couple of pictures from our time away (it was a gorgeous place!):

Our tiny cabin

A hike at Helliwell Provincial Park along the bluffs

The bay our cabin was on

View from our front balcony (ahh!)

Happy puppy!

In other news....

We did have a moment of excitement (and tears) while we were away.  My sister gave birth to her firstborn, a little girl.  She arrived right on time, right on her due date.  My silly sister laboured at home almost the whole time alone... When she arrived at the hospital she was already 10 cm dilated!  As hard as it has been at times for me to see her pregnant, when it comes down to it, she is my little sister and I love her SO MUCH!  Also I am the older sister and I feel a bit of a protective role over her.  Having her so far away (Australia) has been hard.  So, I am now the proud auntie to a little Sidney Eunice (picture is below if you'd like to see her)!

I have to add a little note that her name is so special.  I didn't cry when I first found out she was born, but after I heard her name, I just could not stop crying.  The town we grew up in is called Sidney, and it holds so many special memories for me and my siblings.  My sis and her hubby now live in Sydney, Australia.  So the name is a little piece of both of them (and Eunice is my mom's name).  There is something so special about it that it broke me to pieces.  I think it speaks of how great a mom my sister is going to be, and how proud I am of her for doing this.

Also I am going to have another niece/nephew sometime in the spring as my brother and his wife are expecting their second.  That is a bit harder to take since they are lapping us once again, but more on that another time.

So, without further ado, here is my pretty little niece, whom I can't wait to hold in my arms:

Hours after birth, Sidney Eunice M.  I love you little niece!

TGIF

I just finished the most stressful, tiring, overwhelming, horrible week ever.  But it's OVER!

I don't have much energy to write tonight, but I can share a few photos.  It's Thanksgiving in Canada this weekend (I know, seems WAY too early, right?), so I'm trying to get my house ready and embrace the fall.  Our daytime temperatures have been so warm and we've had solid sunshine for the past month (which is not normal in a place that gets so much rain).  I'm trying to enjoy it while I can!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Getting the garden ready for fall.

Walk at the beach

The cloths I made for my sister's baby

Yes, the deer in our city use the crosswalk (they are that domesticated...)

Fall

Gift from my coworkers

Pumpkins and flowers!