Overall, pretty good. I definitely felt cramping throughout the evening/last night. I slept in today, which was glorious! Between all the 6-hour trips to the clinic and getting up early for bloodwork before going to work this week, I was exhausted! I really needed to catch up on some zzz's. My neck and back are a bit sore today. I'm not sure if that's a result of the IUI, or ovulation, or just sleeping funny.
Emotionally, I just feel pretty proud of myself for going through with it. If you asked me a few years ago if this is something I thought I could do, I'm pretty sure I would have said a resounding NO. I feel proud that we were able to take initiative and make this happen. I feel like I could do it again if it doesn't work this time. I really would prefer not to, but I know it's likely that we will. It's not super common for IUI to work the first time. And I'm worrying about the timing, since my eggs had not yet released and washed sperm doesn't stick around as long. Really, it's all pretty nerve-wracking. I just wish we knew one way or the other! At the same time, even if we DO get preggers from this, I am freaked out about the possibility of a miscarriage or something. I haven't had any miscarriages, as far as I know, but I still see it all the time on blogs. But enough of that.
Here I am today and I have 13 days to go before I go for blood work. I am going to make good use of this time. And, since there are people I know in real life who read this blog (okay, only one but she's special!), I'm not going to be tracking any of my symptoms for the 2ww. At least not online. I will keep track and post them all IF anything happens. But if not, I don't want to have the emotional roller coaster of obsessing over every little symptom here online. And this way I can keep the suspense a little longer and have a chance to let others know in person before I blog about it. So, come day 14, don't expect much of a spoiler post, because I'll give it some time to settle before I do blog about it.
Having said all that (my, I'm rambling today), I will keep blogging about other things in my life, and about thoughts about infertility in general. And, in light of that, I've put together a list of things that I plan to do to keep me occupied over this dreadful two-week-wait! I love lists. All yesterday I was making lists in my head and today is my day to get my life in order, write out my lists and get going on things. I love that. Am I weird, or what? So, this is what I plan to keep me busy for the next 2 weeks:
1. Contact Olivia re. pampered chef pan (it cracked right in half just a month after purchasing it)
2. Plant vegetable seeds for my garden to start indoors
3. Repot house plants (need to buy pots first)
4. Buy new socks
5. Make laundry soap (I make an awesome home-made kind, I'll post about it when I do make it)
6. Plan my birthday tea party (I'm super excited to have a spring birthday tea and can't wait to start planning)
7. Finish knitting DH's scarf (now that winter is practically over...)
8. Find and bake a new bread recipe
9. File taxes (this is more of DH's job, but I'll try to get him to do it to keep him busy too)
10. Sign up for RRSP's
11. Trim bangs and wax eyebrows (maybe throw in a little pedicure too)
12. Find or make pillows for the living room (I need some colour in my life!)
13. Deal with consignment clothes piling up in the spare room
14. I'll leave this one blank... any tips or other ideas of something to finish off my list?
In closing, DH was talking with our friends P&J who know about what we're going through, and was telling them about the experience yesterday. Apparently (I thought this was so cute) he told them that the whole thing the most intimate, un-intimate experience we have had. Meaning, that as un-intimate as the whole thing was... we found a way to connect and have some intimacy through the ridiculousness of it all. Does that make sense? I thought it was pretty cute and just wanted to share.
