I've been kind of thinking lately about what sort of lessons God may be trying to teach me during this time. Okay, I haven't wanted to think about this, but the thought has crossed my mind.
Then all of a sudden today, I thought of something. When I was young (naive) and making decisions about getting married, I was so conscious and strict on the fact that I did not want to lose my identity in a man. Yes, I believe that man and wife become one, but I saw two many women who lost themselves. I don't think that's the way it was meant to be. And I realized today that the same thing happens with babies. Women lose who they are and pour all of their energy - physical, mental and emotional - into their babies. All I see on Facebook these days is women's comments about their babies...nothing about THEMSELVES! I know it's not inherently wrong, but I feel there is a different way. I always felt some sort of "call" to be a pioneer for women in ministry. I haven't thought about that for ages, but now I feel that maybe there is a different way of doing ministry/family life/career, than the only way that has been modeled to us. And maybe that is what I am needed for. To model a new way to younger (and older) women. I don't know if I'll be one of those moms who constantly talks about her children - I'm sure I will at times. But maybe this extra "time" in our journey has allowed me to develop more of who I am. And maybe that will spur me on to hold onto my own passions/gifts/dreams after having children. And maybe that is what people need to see.
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