I had a pretty overwhelming week. I always have a hard time adjusting to change, and even though I love having Kaya with us... it was a pretty tiring week. It probably didn't help catching up from company last week too. Then having my last week of bootcamp with the fitness test at the end. All in all, I was exhausted by today (Sunday). So, for the first time since moving here, I skipped church! It wasn't just to relax - I actually worked pretty hard getting things in order while I had the house to myself. That's what I want to write about.
I am finding it SO hard to keep on top of everything! I don't know if it's because we have a bigger house, or because we have teenage boys living with us who eat more and make a bigger mess, or now that we have a dog and the extra work that brings, or just because I'm working part-time AND doing a practicum that brings me up to 40+ hours of work, or that I am a pastor's wife and feel a call to help alongside him and suport the people in our ministry...
Whatever it is, something is throwing me over the edge and I am at my wit's end!
And this is not the first time I have wished that I could just be a stay-at-home mom! I see so many complaints about being woken up in the night, the never-ending laundry, crying kids, and having to stay home all the time with the kids. And I get it. It would be lonely and a lot of work to have babies (especially more than one little one at home). But to me, right now, the thought of staying home ALL day with one little baby who needed my attention feels like the ultimate vacation!
I would LOVE to be home all day to attend to all the details of the day. To plan out dinner earlier in the day and have some of it prepared, rather than rushing home at 5:30 to quickly get it in the oven and ready before we are all starving at 6:30. To leisurely do laundry throughout the day, rather than cramming in a load after work and rushing to get it done and folded before bed. To answer mail and email as it comes in rather than letting it pile up. To have the time to call businesses during office hours rather than on my lunch hour. To go grocery shopping (even with a little one in tow) during the QUIET day, rather than at the busiest times of the week when everybody else is shopping. To (dare I say it?) take a NAP in the afternoon as my little one naps too, rather than getting up early to walk the dog/exercise, get to work on time, come home, make dinner, clean up, go for another walk, and crash into bed exhausted. To go for long walks with a baby during the nice hours of the day rather than having to get up ridiculously early to exercise, or go in the rain if it's not nice when I'm done work.
Sounds pretty nice to me.
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