I'm having a hard day today.
The boys are doing fantastic in the NICU. They are both feeding champs and have put on weight the past 2 days, rather than going down. Hopefully they keep it up till they reach their birth weight again. They still are being tube fed for some feedings, but are gaining more strength and doing longer feeds from the breast and bottle. Both of their bilirubin levels have been up and down so they have been on and off the jaundice lights. Hopefully they stay steady for a bit now and then they can be transferred to open cots instead of the isolettes. We gave each of them their first sponge bath. One liked it, the other did not. But the cuddles afterwards when they were wrapped up in warm blankets were definitely loved! The nurses keep telling us that once they start eating well, things often progress really quickly. It's like a switch goes on and they usually go home within a few days. I am preparing for us to be here at least till their twin date (Nov. 8th) but I'd love to go home earlier!
Today I just felt lonely and isolated. Living in a crappy motel in a town that is not yours while your babies are in the NICU is HARD! When we are not at the hospital, we are in the motel watching TV and eating take-out, or sleeping. We have a tiny kitchen and try to eat breakfast and lunch here, but it's just not ideal. I miss my house. I miss my dog so much! I just want our family to be at home all together.
I had a rough day on Friday too. I ended up bleeding a bunch more and since I don't have a doctor here, the nurse sent me to emergency to see a doctor. An ultrasound showed that I had retained pregnancy tissue in my uterus and I was given misoprostol to work it out. Before I could take it, though, I started bleeding really heavily and went back to emergency. I was admitted and ended up being monitored there for 5 hours after taking the misoprostol. We didn't realize it at the time, but the misoprostol has side effects, such as uncontrollable shaking and fever. I thought it was from the bleeding and it was just a real scary time. I was so upset with having to be away from the boys. Luckily, they had a really good nurse on and I had enough milk stocked to last the night so when I was discharged we were able to go back and rest. I think the experience just was really draining on both DH and I. He had a bad day yesterday, and I did today. Parenting through that kind of stress is tough. Being all alone through it is tough too. Hopefully tomorrow we will wake up feeling refreshed and recovered to get back in the swing of things again.
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