Bonding

I wanted to make sure I didn't give the wrong impression yesterday about how I have bonded with these little guys.  I have so many moments throughout the day where I can't believe how incredible this really is.  When the boys lie next together and interact with their hands and their little noises, when I hold them and they stare back at me with bright, wide eyes, when nothing will satisfy their cries except milk from mommy, when they come out of the bath all fresh and snuggly, when I kiss their baby soft skin, I am overwhelmed with the realization that these boys are MINE!  Sometimes, though, it seems like the realization is more cerebral and less of a feeling.  Does that make sense?  I know the feelings will follow but I think I had to keep my feelings guarded and at bay for so long (to avoid an emotional collapse) that they will take a while coming back.  This is just what the bonding process looks like for me. 

Still, there is no doubt about it that these boys have stolen my heart.  I will never be the same again.