Friday's Thoughts

This week has been insane.  My mind is just a blur.  A blur that I can't quite turn off.  So here I am to share my random thoughts with you all.

1. Hubby and I have not had a single night to ourselves ALL week.  Every single night since... maybe last Saturday one of us has been out.  Usually that means the one left home is doing dinner, clean-up, putting the boys to bed, post-bed clean-up and prep for the next day all to themselves.  Or I'm coming home to cleaning and prepping to be done since I kind of run that show.  It's been exhausting.  And lonely.  I miss my man.

2. However, this weekend DH and I are GOING AWAY FOR A NIGHT TO OURSELVES!  This is a BIG deal folks.  We haven't had a night away (without the kids) since before I went on bed rest while I was pregnant.  I've been wanting to for months, but DH didn't feel ready to leave the boys with anyone else (I was fine with it lol).  But, we bought tickets to a concert months ago, and were planning to bring the boys and have DH's brother and wife watch them.  Instead, we decided that since my mom was free, we would leave the boys at home with her, and enjoy the night away to ourselves.  I am So. Freaking. Excited!

3. For the concert we are heading down island 3 hours to the city where our fertility treatments were conducted and I spent 7 weeks in the hospital.  I haven't really been back there (besides one quick doctor's visit) since the boys were born. Even thinking about it is bringing up all sorts of emotions.  But not the bad, bedrest, hospital stay emotions that were at the forefront before.  I've more been remembering the excitement and anticipation of going for fertility treatments.  I think it has to do with the fact that we are TTC again.  At the moment, all the pain and frustration and feelings of futility have vanished and I am just remembering the expectation and hope.  Maybe I'm trying to summon those feelings back again.  It's actually a really nice place to be.

4. Which leads me to the next point... TTC!  I am officially IUD-FREE!  The first thing my doctor said when I went for my appointment was, "So, you're trying to get pregnant?"  I guess that IS the reason people have their IUD removed, but with all of our history, the question caught me off guard.  I went into this rambly, long explanation about our history before realizing I could have just answered the question with a simple yes.

5. But... DH and I haven't really talked about TTC.  I mean, don't get me wrong...he was totally on board with my removing the IUD, but I don't think he has really thought about what this actually means, or could mean for us and our family.  He is kind of the after-thought processor.  He doesn't really process things until after they happen, and then he freaks out.  I hope we have a chance to really talk while we are away.  Or forget the talking and just get to business and see what happens, lol! 


Well, it's not even 9pm but my eyes are starting to get blurry and shut down...  It's been a Loonnnng week.  I'm ready to curl up, get a good night's sleep and enjoy my weekend.  TTYL!

P.S. I have a new post on my other blog... check it out!