Monday morning musings

This weekend was rather boring. DH left on Saturday morning and apart from his brother stopping by for an hour yestserday, I didn't have any other visitors. I'm looking forward to him coming back this afternoon. My thoughts are scattered today so I'm going to do a bullet point list of what is on my mind.

• Uterus update: I had (another) ultrasound yesterday to check my cervix and the baby's fluid levels and all was looking great. In fact, my cervix was longer than last time at 3.2. I spoke to the doctor this morning and asked about the clot. He said that the u/s did not make mention of it, but that it was much easier/clearer to see the cervix. I take that to mean that it has most likely bled out or been reabsorbed! With that out of the way, and Baby A's placenta not showing as previa, my risk of bleeding has greatly decreased. We can't say for sure, but they are talking about letting me got home at 32 weeks if no other issues pop up. I keep telling myself: Don't get your hopes up, don't get your hopes up, don't get your hopes up... 
• Homesick: This last weekend showed me just how homesick I really am. I just want to go home so badly! I think the thought of being discharged early (32 weeks) has found its way into my head and all I want is to be at home... To sleep in my own bed, to eat my own food, to use my own bathroom... I just want to go home! At the same time, I worry about being overwhelmed if I do go home. All I will see is how much needs to be done before these babies arrive. At least here, I am forced not to really think about that too much. But still, I think being at home would be so much easier than this. 
• Vanity: Okay, I really, really want a haircut! I just want to have new, fresh hair before these babies arrive (I don't know why it is so important, but somehow it is). Last night I dreamt that I was discharged to go home on strict bed rest, but the first place I stopped was my hairdresser. You know you're desperate when...
• Transition: Probably the biggest concern on my mind currently is how I am going to transition back to the "real world" after being in the hospital. If I do have to stay right until the babies are born, that is going to be even harder. Going from such a controlled environment, where everything is practically done for you, to being the caregiver for two small life forms is a HUGE adjustment. I know that bringing any baby home is an adjustment, but I know that for me, I do better with adjustment when I have some control and have things in place. With all of that being stripped away, I am actually scared about how I will handle it. I expect to be bitchy, emotional, unreasonable, anxious and difficult. I don't want my first days with our little ones to be like that. I just don't know how else to prepare myself... 
• Circumcision: And on another note, DH and I are trying to decide if we want to circumcise our child if we have a boy(s). This is a completely random point, and not one I hear discussed in blogland that often, but I would love to hear how others have made this decision. It is something I have never really considered before, but now that the option is there, I want to make an informed decision. Right now, my biggest "pro" point is just ease of cleanliness...and my biggest "con" is that you have to pay money to do it, when there aren't that many clear advantages. I think at the end of the day I will let DH make this decision. 

So, that is where my mind is at this Monday morning. Feel free to way in on any of the above points. I'd love to hear your thoughts!