- Uterus update: I had (another) ultrasound yesterday to check my cervix and the baby's fluid levels and all was looking great. In fact, my cervix was longer than last time at 3.2. I spoke to the doctor this morning and asked about the clot. He said that the u/s did not make mention of it, but that it was much easier/clearer to see the cervix. I take that to mean that it has most likely bled out or been reabsorbed! With that out of the way, and Baby A's placenta not showing as previa, my risk of bleeding has greatly decreased. We can't say for sure, but they are talking about letting me got home at 32 weeks if no other issues pop up. I keep telling myself: Don't get your hopes up, don't get your hopes up, don't get your hopes up...
- Homesick: This last weekend showed me just how homesick I really am. I just want to go home so badly! I think the thought of being discharged early (32 weeks) has found its way into my head and all I want is to be at home... To sleep in my own bed, to eat my own food, to use my own bathroom... I just want to go home! At the same time, I worry about being overwhelmed if I do go home. All I will see is how much needs to be done before these babies arrive. At least here, I am forced not to really think about that too much. But still, I think being at home would be so much easier than this.
- Vanity: Okay, I really, really want a haircut! I just want to have new, fresh hair before these babies arrive (I don't know why it is so important, but somehow it is). Last night I dreamt that I was discharged to go home on strict bed rest, but the first place I stopped was my hairdresser. You know you're desperate when...
- Transition: Probably the biggest concern on my mind currently is how I am going to transition back to the "real world" after being in the hospital. If I do have to stay right until the babies are born, that is going to be even harder. Going from such a controlled environment, where everything is practically done for you, to being the caregiver for two small life forms is a HUGE adjustment. I know that bringing any baby home is an adjustment, but I know that for me, I do better with adjustment when I have some control and have things in place. With all of that being stripped away, I am actually scared about how I will handle it. I expect to be bitchy, emotional, unreasonable, anxious and difficult. I don't want my first days with our little ones to be like that. I just don't know how else to prepare myself...
- Circumcision: And on another note, DH and I are trying to decide if we want to circumcise our child if we have a boy(s). This is a completely random point, and not one I hear discussed in blogland that often, but I would love to hear how others have made this decision. It is something I have never really considered before, but now that the option is there, I want to make an informed decision. Right now, my biggest "pro" point is just ease of cleanliness...and my biggest "con" is that you have to pay money to do it, when there aren't that many clear advantages. I think at the end of the day I will let DH make this decision.
Monday, September 16, 2013
Monday morning musings
This weekend was rather boring. DH left on Saturday morning and apart from his brother stopping by for an hour yestserday, I didn't have any other visitors. I'm looking forward to him coming back this afternoon. My thoughts are scattered today so I'm going to do a bullet point list of what is on my mind.
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That's great that it looks as if your bleeding risks have gone down so much! I hope you'll be able to go home soon.
ReplyDeleteCircumcision...we waffled a lot on that one. I personally didn't want it done because I couldn't bear the thought of my little boy being in pain, especially in such a sensitive little area! My husband is from the US where it seems pretty much all baby boys have it done and it's done right in the hospital after birth. He was adamant about having it done for our little guy, but eventually decided against it because 1) it costs $300 and 2) all the medical professionals we talked to told it was unnecessary and most Canadian families don't have it done.
Yay on the ultrasound results!! I will be keeping fingers and toes crossed for you bring discharged!!
ReplyDeleteOn circumcision: there's so much out there on it. Currently the circumcision rate in the US is 50%, with variation depending on where one lives (the more conservative the area, the higher the circumcision rate). We did go that route for the cleanliness and disease transmission issue (CDC issued a report in support of circumcision http://mobile.nytimes.com/2012/08/27/science/benefits-of-circumcision-outweigh-risks-pediatric-group-says.html) but it was hard seeing my little guy's swollen penis (he didn't seem to mind, oddly enough).
Honestly, I think it's such a personal decision that I would spend some time talking with your DH as well as researching what's standard in your area. Also find out if insurance covers it. For us it was, but we had to do it within a timeframe. Good luck with your decision!
I am praying and hoping that you get to go home at 32 weeks too! (And to get that haircut)
ReplyDeleteWe circumcised Max. We came to that decision not for any reason besides the fact that my husband is. There is a new movement of not doing this since it is not really medically necessary anymore. Don't listen to one side or the other. I had people that made me feel awful for doing this to my son. Before the twins were born, I had people that also couldn't believe I was looking into NOT circumcising. It comes down to your and your husband's decision.
I will say, I am glad that we chose to. It really was not as traumatic as I expected. It was easy to take care of. My husband feels better that his wishes were honored (for once!).
Our insurance covered most of the procedure. I think we had to pay around $100 towards his deductible.
I hope you get to go home (and get a haircut!). Since we don't yet know the gender we've been talking about circumcision and have decided against it. Aside from the whole why-do-I-look-different-from-daddy consideration we felt that there was no reason to do it. Just my two cents. :)
ReplyDeleteI hope you get your haircut! It's the little things that matter. Like I should go take a shower after I feed the baby in a few moments or I will never get one today/this week.
ReplyDeleteWe have girls but we didn't know that either were going to be girls so we'd decided not to circumcise because it's expensive (zero covered by insurance for us), the health benefits are pretty marginal based on my research, and it isn't our faith so there was no reason. But decide what makes you happy!
Lurker over here! I hope you make it to 32 weeks and get to go home! And get that haircut! There won't be much time for it after!
ReplyDeleteI had twin boys 4 months ago and we opted to go with a circumcision for both. Our insurance did cover it shockingly (after all the other bills it was a pleasant surprise!) but we knew we were going to do it even if they didn't. It may not have been the right reasons for making the decision but I didn't want them to be different. Even if the number of boys being circumcised is going down, I still feel like it's the majority. And honestly, kids can be mean! I didn't want to make any decisions that would give anyone a reason to point at them. Again, it might not have been the best reason for making the decision but it's what we went with. We trusted our doctor, he did a great job on both and recovery was pretty effortless on our part! And the boys seemed to not care one bit - I probably cried more than they did lol! :)