It's lonely being a stay-at-home mom

It's lonely being a stay-at-home mom.

It took me six months to realize it.  The first few months are a blur, especially with twins.  You are too busy surviving each day to think about anything more.  After that, you adjust a bit and start to get out and about.  Baby groups, church, and even trips to the park.  Still, it's all baby-focused.  You meet a few people but your only common interest is your babies.  It's wonderful, but "you" don't really get to be known.  By 6 months, you (*fingers crossed*) are sleeping a bit more and feel somewhat more human.  Life has hit a bit of a routine (that still changes day-to-day) and all of a sudden, you have some time to yourself.  What, you say?  Myself?  Who am I now that this time has passed and all of my energy and thoughts have been devoted to my baby(babies) for these past six months?  So you try to re-engage with the friends who disappeared when your life so dramatically changed.  Except it's not quite the same.  You've changed.  Your lifestyle has changed.  You don't have the same things in common anymore.  So you try to pick up the activities you used to do.  Except even they're not the same.  You discover your body isn't quite the way it used to be and things do not come as easily.  You find that it takes too much time to setup any craft/two-handed activity, and by the time you get everything out, the babies are stirring and you have barely even started.  And that spare hour you manage to get to sneak out of the house, is barely enough time to return the item to Walmart, let alone do anything for YOU! 

How DO you reengage and get back to caring for your self after becoming a mom?  It's not as easy as I thought pre-pregnancy.  And it is oh so lonely.  Spending time getting to know these little beings in your life is so wonderful!  It's indescribable, really.  Yet it's hard to find the time or space for myself to be known.  And so I've come to realize that I am lonely right now.