Get 'er done

Once again, just checking in… I think this has been the worst TWW ever! I just am so conscious of every little symptom, and want to get excited, but don’t want to get my hopes up. Dealing with IF certainly ruins you for any “fun” in finding out you are PG. Today is day 28. No AF – not even any spotting! Certainly have been feeling “action” deep in the belly area. Kind of crampy, but not painful. DH described it as sounding like a coffee purculator. I thought that was a perfect description! I’ve had a super stuffy nose the last few weeks, especially at night. I have not been sleeping through the night, but have been up with insomnia. I have had this terrible pinched nerve in my neck that has come and gone the past 2 weeks. And this morning I felt nausea and a bit of heartburn as I lay in bed trying to get up.  Never have I been so excited to feel that. However, I had a major meltdown cry day yesterday, and I feel strikingly similar to how I normally do right before my AF. The only difference is the constant “percolating” happening. I figured that I ovulated a bit late (day 16?) based on my BBT, so I shouldn’t actually expect AF till day 30. But then we leave on holidays for a week so I won’t be able to have a blood test (if need be) until WAY later! And it would just suck for AF to show up right when my holidays start, especially when we’re camping. Oh, so much uncertainty and waiting right now! DH keeps saying he thinks that when we finally are PG, it is going to catch me off guard. I just don’t know how it could with all the many symptoms that I am keeping track of! Oh my!

I have to settle in the words that a good friend (mentor) passed on yesterday. She encouraged me to trust God in the process, meaning that we don’t see the whole picture. But how much do you rest and relax in the process, and when do you need to be active and “get ‘er done”? Anyways, only 3 more days till holiday. Holiday. Holiday. Holiday. I hope this is just what we need.