Nerves... (Update on IUI)

(For those who already read this post, there is an update below)

Okay, I spoke too soon about the clomid.  I am not having crazy hot flashes, but the emotions are coming in strong!  I'm not even emotional about anything in particular, but I feel like I am being flooded with some sort of emotion that does not have a place to land.  It's a very strange feeling.

In other news, I decided this morning to take a OPK to see if I might be starting to surge.  I hopped in the shower after I took it, thinking nothing would come of it, but when I got out there was a faint, but distinct, positive line.  That sent me into freak-out mode!  It's too early.  On my way to work I stopped at the lab, where I fortunately have a standing order for Lh testing.  I had that done and called my clinic as soon as they were open.  Once they receive the results, they are going to give me a call to let me know what to do next.  I was supposed to go for an u/s tomorrow to check on how my follies were growing.  If I am surging... I don't know what they will do!  Will they do the IUI without knowing how many follies I have?  Will they do an u/s first and then call me back for the IUI later?  Or will they postpone it till Wednesay... and if they do will I miss my ovulation window?  Also, that will mean two days in a row of the 6-hour drive there and back to the clinic.  Whew!  Clearly, I am a little panicky today.

As I'm going through all of this, my nice calm happy feelings are going away.  I'm starting to get butterflies in the stomach and nerves about it all.  I am excited, but I am also nervous.  Without realizing it, I guess I did place quite a bit of hope into this working.  My ND gave me some gaba pills to take if I started to feel anxiety... why did I leave them at home today???

***Update*** The doctor called me and it turns out I am surging already (it's only day 11 today).  I got my Lh result online and it's still below the cut-off, so I think I'm on my way to surging fully tomorrow, which would mean I ovulate sometime tomorrow or Wednesday.  So, our IUI is scheduled for 3:00 tomorrow afternoon!  I'm guessing they will do a trigger shot at that time too.  Crazy, crazy... it's happening!!!!  Will let you know how it goes!