Saturday, November 26, 2011

Dreaded day 5

I can't back this up with evidence, but I am pretty sure my hormones take a super plummet right near the end of my period, right around day 5.  Combine that with day 3 of clomid, and you do not want to mess with me!  This also happens to fall on a Saturday.  Now I love Saturdays.  But lately, with the way our life has been, I work, work, work like mad to have everything done so that I can actually enjoy my Saturday off.  But no matter how hard I try, it just isn't enough.  There is ALWAYS something more to be done.  I think this is the way that life just is.. but I suck at it.  I find it so hard to dump everything and go and "have fun" knowing that I have to come back to a pile of work to do.  I would much rather work hard, finish everything early and THEN go play and have fun.  Also the last few Saturdays because I have been working so hard, I find I kind of crash on Saturday.  And when I try to have fun, I don't. 

Such is the place I am in today.  I don't want to see anybody, do anything, or even crawl out of my bed.  And yet I want to enjoy my one day off and have fun but it's like I can't.  Is it this crazy mix of hormones, or is it me?  I can't really tell anymore... 

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