Today I don't feel pregnant. Well, I didn't all day till right now as I'm feeling a bit of heartburn. It worries me a little, but not extremely. I wish I felt fatigued like I did last weekend. In my mind I correlate that with my rising Hcg levels. I'm a bit tired, but not nearly that tired. At the same time, I didn't drive for an hour, take a ferry ride, take a bus and walk around during the afternoon... that probably contributed to the extra fatigue. So, I'm hanging in there. I wish we were doing another beta this week. I just feel like if I saw those rising numbers, everything would be okay. If it is ectopic, doesn't it reach a certain point and then just stop rising? But I haven't had a single bit of spotting, or pain or cramping, so I hope that means it is okay.
We sent off some mail today! A package to my newly pregnant sister, with a note from our baby. A letter to my brother and niece for their birthdays, with a note from our baby. A card to DH's parents, with a note from our baby. I know it may be too early, but we would rather them know and be there to support us IF something went wrong. And if everything is fine on Monday, we want to be able to CELEBRATE! I think we will tell my parents on Friday, my birthday, also with a card and note from our baby. Fun! I had lunch with my mom today and I was so glad she didn't ask me how I'm doing with the news from my sister, or about my treatments. I had actually practiced avoiding the question or telling a lie in case she did ask haha. It will be nice once it is out in the open.
In other news, our living arrangement with DH's brother has passed the honeymoon stage (which I expected to end rather quickly). The scoop is that he is 33 years old, has 2 law degrees, has been in school for almost the past 10 years, and hasn't worked a real job in all that time. He has lived off his parents and does not know how to be on his own. DH and him do care about each other, but they push each other's buttons so much and can hardly be more than a few days together. The roles are very much reversed as DH is the younger child, and we are feeding, housing, and supporting his older brother now. Of course that is going to cause some feelings of resentment! And yes, of course, we love him and want to help where we can. I think we're all still in the adjustment phase. And boy can he eat a lot! Finances are tight, and tighter now as we anticipate the arrival of a little one, and try to pay down debt and student loans. He will need to start pitching in ASAP!
Hmmmm, we had some of that "brotherly love" in this house too! And friends of ours with the same cultural situation had it too! Ours was the younger brother. Totally smart, can't seem to finish school or get a grown up job. Thankfully, he doesn't live here anymore, although our future baby room is still full of his crap. Love him, but dude!
ReplyDeleteIt is still early so it is very normal for the symptoms to come & go. Could you ask for another beta to help you? I am sure the drs would not say no. It is very nice of you to help your BIL. I wish you the best with everything.
ReplyDeleteExciting you are telling family. I would want to do the same thing. Tell the people who I would want support from is something did go wrong.
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