Whew! I am feeling so anxious today! I haven't felt so jumpy like this for a long time.
I had a bad sleep (lots of hot flashes) and was SO tired this morning. But I got up and went for my blood work first thing. When I got home I had a little meltdown. I'm just tired, and this all seems like so much work. I'm nervous that my LH surge will happen today and that my eggs won't be fully developed, or my lining thick enough. I'm googling like crazy to look for ways to delay the surge, or increase the lining in such a short time (it's a hopeless pursuit). I'm stressed about having to miss work to go to the clinic tomorrow if I do surge today. I just missed Monday already, though I was at a conference all day Saturday to make up the hours. It would just be better if it was Thursday or even Friday. I have to see clients today and I'm not in the head space. I wish life could just take a break until we get pregnant, haha.
I'm also feeling a tad guilty about the title of my post yesterday and I wanted to clarify. I'm hoping this is the week that GOD makes us a baby, not just science. Yes, we're using science to help us achieve this, but I believe that it is God who brings life, and breathes life into every living being. Without Him as a part of this process, we are lost. So I wanted to give more credit to Him. I am trusting in Him to accomplish this. I am praying. I even am going to fast this week (give up something in order to spend more time with Him, reading my Bible and praying). I truly believe that He has the power to do this, and I will petition Him until it happens!
***Update***
Got my LH blood results. My LH went down from 14.4 to 13.4. Not sure what that means (thought it was supposed to keep rising), but the clinic called and told me to go in tomorrow for more blood work and we'll see from there. Whew! So glad I don't have to go tomorrow. I also have a dentist appointment that I keep changing and they wouldn't be happy to have me cancel at the last minute. I am super stressed and tired still... but I am heading to yoga and hoping for some happy down time.
Anxiety is a very normal part of the process. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteDid your doctor say how thick your lining was? Mine thought anything above 5mm would be fine (though a lot of doctors want at least 7 or 8). As for follicles, they grow about 1-2 mm a day, so I think they'll be fine. :)
Ohh, thanks Jenny! I think my lining was close to 5mm, I don't quite remember but it probably should be okay. I'm glad to hear about the follies too. Whew! So many factors into making a baby, haha!
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