Grrr!

I'm feeling a little bit "grr" today.  I called the Fertility Clinic this morning to ask them some questions.  After explaining who I was, the girl clued in about my situation this month and reminded me AGAIN to make sure to call the clinic on the days I do bloodwork.  That was not necessary. 

Anyways, I wanted to ask them about the pains I have been having on clomid.  Usually, right around day 14 (whether I surge early or not), I have a lot of pain in my abdomen.  And it's been growing.  It feels like my whole abdomen is inflammed.  It's not just bloated, but a different kind of pain.  DH came to give me a hug the other day and that was even painful.  I am worried that it could be overstimulated ovaries or something like that.  So I wanted to let the doctor know.  Also, I wanted to ask about my early ovulation and if that could be a problem in TTC.  What if my lining is not fully developed at ovulation?  What if my eggs are leaving prematuraly?  These are important aspects, I would think, of a journey of infertility.  I asked if the clinic does U/S monitoring of uterine lining levels and follicles, etc.  The girl said that they do, but because I'm from out of town, I am doing self-monitoring.  I don't see why I couldn't just go for an U/S here, but she said that they use a special U/S machine (probably the vaginal speculum).  So, anyways, she agreed to write down my questions and pass them on to my doctor.  It wasn't really helpful and I'm feeling frustrated about the process.  I feel like I need an advocate - someone on my side as I navigate through this process.  It is tough.  I wish I lived closer to the clinic, and could go in for regular monitoring.  I wish I didn't have to work, and could take weeks off to go stay near the clinic, if it really would help.  I wish the doctors and offices here were more supportive.  But it's not the way it is for me.  I just feel like we could be wasting precious time here.  Sigh.

So I'll wait for a reply (maybe) from the doctor.  I am scheduled to see my ND this week, which will be good.  She knows a lot about feminine hormones and stuff.  I also want to get on top of feeling "better" in general.  I'm sick of feeling sick all the time.  It's only day 18, so a while to go before we start the cycle again...  Trying my best to enjoy day-by-day...