This week is almost over. But it couldn't quite end without one further jab to make things worse.
My brother called tonight. My little brother - 4 years younger than I. My little brother who was the first to bring a grandchild to my parents.
They are pregnant again.
Hooray.
My sister's baby is due in less than a month.
Hooray.
My job is ending. I don't have a baby. We may not continue treatments. We do not have money to do anything fun or exciting.
Hooray.
As much as I want this week to be over, I don't even want to go to bed tonight. I don't want tomorrow to come, or the next day, or the next. Why can't the world just end tonight?
Sending you lots of hugs my friend. I know these weeks all too well. Perhaps you and your husband could do something fun together that won't cost money? Go somewhere for the day where you can talk, scream, cry, whatever it takes. Maybe a hike or a state park, picnic lunch somewhere...I don't know. I hope next week is better for you guys. Thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry Slynn. I know how hard this news is. Please be kind to yourself during this time.
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