FRUSTRATION

AAAHHHH!!!!  I am SO FRUSTRATED right now.  I had not heard anything from the Fertility Clinic yet.  I expected that IF my surge happened or was happening on Saturday, they would call me and set something up for Monday.  Since I hadn't heard, I thought I must not have surged.  I tried to do some looking online to see what "normal" surge blood levels are, and my reading said over 20 is a surge.  Since I was at 18, I thought it should be okay.

However, this morning I got up super early and went for bloodwork (and now am so tired to boot).  Then, once the clinic opened (not till 9), I called because I was not feeling settled.  After explaining everything, the girl had to go find my chart because it was not pulled (which it SHOULD have been when my blood work came in on Saturday, I would think?) and told me that it sounded like I had already surged.  They say that anything past 15 is probably a surge.  Oh great! 

She also asked me if I had intercourse lots on the weekend.  Aren't you NOT supposed to have too much intercourse right before a fertility treatment?  Since I thought there was a chance that we might be coming in on Monday or Tuesday, we didn't do it because you're supposed to "save up" for 2 days usually.  So no, we did NOT have LOTS of intercourse on the weekend.  She said that she would try to find my blood work (she still didn't have it) and speak to the doctor and call me back.  I'm still waiting to hear back.  I called but she was on the other line and has not returned my call yet. 

I'm so mad.  If we really missed this chance due to their incompetence and stupidity, I will be so angry.  And I'm so frustrated because I don't have any other options but to go with them.  Even if we took the ferry over to Vancouver, it would be a 3 hour trip and much more expensive.  It's not like I have the time off that I can just book a week here or there to plan around my fertility treatments!  I don't actually get ANY time off... or any sick days... so I have to make up whatever I miss. 

And WHY do I keep surging right around the weekends?

And if this was actually my surge on Friday, or Saturday, then why so early?  It was only day 9.  That is way too early, isn't it?  Reading about early LH surge online is not helping either.

I'm just so mad.  I'm taking these stupid drugs that make me feel terrible, and now it was to no avail.  I'm having hot flashes like crazy today.  I'm tired.  And now it is likely that we missed our window... yet again!  WTF?