It was my fault. Yes, I was surging on Saturday (day 10 and already at 18.6). Yes, I was SUPPOSED to call the clinic to ask them to look out for my results (though why else would they randomly be receiving blood work for me, I don't know?). They probably told me that back in November. And I forgot. And now we've missed it. Even so, DH could not have made the trip on Sunday. Sunday is our busy, full of work day with the church stuff. And we had company in town. So we missed it. It's over.
The lady on the phone kept saying, "But you had intercourse on the weekend, right? And with clomid there's a good chance..." Well lady, I've tried clomid 5 or 6 rounds so far... and guess what? I'm not pregnant. So with me, there's NOT a good chance.
I didn't actually expect this round to work. I just wanted to get a move on. I'm tired of waiting. I'm going to be 31 before I'm pregnant for sure now. I really just wanted to feel like I was moving forward. And now I'm stuck waiting another STUPID month to try again. Every day is hard. How do I last 30 more? I hate, absolutely hate, HATE, HATE, HATE going through this.
AHHH! I'm sorry, that sucks so much :( :( Have you not had luck with OPKs? I know some people never get the smileys with them, I've only gotten smileys (positive LH surge detection) half the months I've used them. I just ask because it seems like such a hassle to depend on this office for quick response time. :(
ReplyDeleteNope, never had luck with OPKs. That is why I went this route with the blood work. Yesterday I had the sligtest line on an OPK but that is the first time that's happened (and it was too late for the LH surge obviously). I recently heard something about an instrument that uses your saliva. May look into that.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry too. What an incredible shame to have this added to the struggle. Hoping that you'll find the strength to get through the next four weeks.
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