Thought one more post would round off the day nicely.
I'm still wrestling through my thoughts. I was in a pretty big funk for the afternoon but after a little nape, some food and fresh air, I can see my way out a bit. I actually feel a bit numb. I cried a little but that was all.
It is not that I am super sad that we won't be pregnant this time around. I really didn't expect it would work. I just feel like I desperately needed a chance, some hope, that things were moving in the right direction. I needed to feel like I was doing something in order to relax and be able to enjoy life again. I'm not sure why this was so important to me, but it was.
Now I just don't know what to do. There is nothing for me to do.
And due to my recent results, I am now questioning my early ovulation, high estriadol levels, wondering about low ovarian reserve... I don't know what to do. Maybe I will call the clinic again. I would love to speak to the doctor, to have someone look at my blood work and give me their thoughts, to figure out WHY our infertility is happening. Sigh.
I think that's enough for one day. I will go get some sleep. Good night!
Clomid always made me ovulate early, usually around cd 10 or 11. (Without meds, I ovulate anywhere from cd 12 to 16.) I don't think the early ovulation necessarily means that you have low ovarian reserve. It could just be because of the clomid. But it does sound as if you need to get some things figured out with your doctor, so I'd definitely push for answers. It may be that clomid isn't the right drug for you.
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Thanks for that thought. That helps me feel a bit better. I do want to try speak to a doctor. So many questions now!
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