Sharing

Well, I think I am pretty proud of myself.  I say that "I think" because I'm not completely sure how to feel about it yet.  But this weekend I opened the doors a little bit wider and let 3 people in on our struggle.  I feel good about it, but I also feel vulnerable with the exposure.  I'm not sure what I'm afraid of, but it's new territory, I guess.

It started off with sharing with Kris (which again, was just wonderful).  Then, yesterday at church I shared with another lady who I am becoming friends with.  I don't know what was going on, but I could not keep the floodgates closed.  I was so teary.  I hadn't even taken my clomid pills yet, but everything was just getting to me for some reason.  She took note of it and asked me if I'd like to talk.  I said yes but was a bit hesitant, only because I didn't know if DH minded her knowing.  I figured it was fine and told her.  It was just nice because I was able to release all the emotion that I was feeling at that moment.  I really needed that.  And then today, I told my boss!  I figured that I would be calling in sick (hopefully next week!) and just that it would be good for her to know.  She is all about business (in a warm way) and wished me all the best.  While I'm on the roll, I may just tell my close colleague too.  Right now, I'm thinking the more support, the better (especially if it doensn't work...let's not go there yet though).

Day 2 of clomid.  Yuck... I said goodbye to DH and told him that clomid me would soon be taking over, so he should get in some good kisses while I was still around..haha.