The one about the miscarriage

It's here.  It's official.  I am miscarrying.

***Warning: This is a TMI post about my current state of miscarriage.***

I went back to the doctor on Monday to see what he said and, surprisingly, I started very lightly spotting that morning.  We had a talk anyways and decided that if the spotting hadn't progressed by the end of the week, I would take misoprostal.  Tuesday was just more spotting, and I had some slight cramps at the end of the day.

This morning I was woken up near 5:00am with waves of cramping.  Though similar to period cramps, it was different and more intense.  I tried to count to see if it was contraction-like in the timing but gave up.  I wavered between sleep, cramps, and using the washroom until I got up at 8:00 for work.  I wasn't bleeding very much yet and thought I'd see how bad I was doing.  So, I took the dog for a walk!  I came back and showered and got myself ready.  I was still cramping, but it would just come every few minutes and then subside.  I decided I'd go in for a meeting I had this morning and then likely do a short day.  I actually survived pretty well at work but was feeling slightly foggy and out of it so I decided to come home.  When I got home, I napped.  Since I woke up though, the cramping has definitely increased.  It is kind of like a constant pain radiating from my uterus to my back.  It still comes in waves and gets intense, then tapers off.  I am bleeding a bit more, and just now starting to pass some tissue.  I had called the doctor earlier to see if I should still pick up the prescription for misoprostal and he said to take it if things hadn't "advanced" by tomorrow morning.  So I picked it up.  I'm freaked out of using it though, and now I'm thinking I might not have to.

Currently, I can't figure out what to do with myself.  It's uncomfortable lying down.  It's uncomfortable sitting.  I can barely walk around except slowly and carefully.  I tried reading and couldn't concentrate.  I tried eating but feel kind of ill.  My sink is full of dishes that I want to do, but can't even muster up the energy to get to.  A hot water bottle has been helpful and I'll probably go distract myself with some TV. 

I did call sick into work tomorrow too so we'll see how this goes and go from there.  I don't know if I can expect it to get worse, or if it will be like this for a long time... the hardest part is not knowing!  Any other tips or suggestions on how to get through this???   Thanks for the support!