Maternity shopping

I went shopping today.  I shouldn't have.  I was just fed up with my weight.  After months of fertility drugs I started off my last cycle above my regular weight.  Since our IUI (March 1st), I have been taking it really easy and not pushing myself too hard.  Since our BFP, low HcG and quesionnable ultrasound, I have been taking it even more easy.  I'm still going for walks every day but I cut out going to the gym, or going jogging or any other high cardio activity.  I tried yoga 2 or 3 times but that is about it.  Add to that my fatigue and exhaustion and most days I prefer having a nap to doing any activity.  Add to that my fear of morning sickness and so my constant snacking habits and worry of making sure I am getting in all the right nutrients.  Add to that the extreme bloating that I have been experiencing for the past few weeks that makes me look like I should be 4-5 months along!  I do also feel like my uterus is taking shape and like I can see a definition that wasn't there before... not sure if that is in my head but I hope it's a growing baby and growing home for that baby.

All that to say, my clothes are not fitting me right!  I know it is way too early and that I shouldn't be needing to alter my wardrobe yet... but I do.  Yesterday I tried on 5 outfits to try to find something acceptable to wear to church.  I constantly feel like I need to suck in so that people won't ask me if I am pregnant.  And jeans have become the most uncomfortable thing EVER!  As soon as I get home I change into my yoga or "I give up on life" pants.  And then I'm happy. 

So my mom picked up a few pairs of yoga pants for me for an Easter present.  One of them didn't fit quite right, so I went today to see if I could exchange it.  I found another great pair, and then a pair of capris.  Even though they are yoga wear I feel like I could almost dress them up a bit for when summer comes and wear them to work on more casual days.  I also popped over to Winners.  I don't know what came over me, but I had my most successful shop at Winners ever!  I never find things there.  I found another pair of yoga pants (that are quite stylish), two tops (that hide my growing belly nicely), a pair of pant/leggings that will look great with a long shirt overtop) AND a grey striped cotton summer skirt that can be worn folded over as a skirt or as a sleeveless dress.  I bought them all!  I tried to make sure that they were clothes that I liked and would wear if this pregnancy does not work out but I couldn't help sticking out my belly (which was quite bloated today) and imagining wearing them with a real baby belly inside.  Oh I really hope I'm not jinxing myself here. 

I'm in a super organizing mode and just want to go home and reorganize my wardrobe and pack away all those clothes that just don't fit.  But I'm at work and need to put in a couple of hours before I can go home... 

Tell me I'm not crazy, please!