I just wanted to follow that last post with a note that today things are much better! There are still unresolved "issues" but we are doing okay and I hope that things will continue to get better. I think that money is a big stress right now (and why DH is planning to buy a custom built guitar when we are in debt and trying to save and he is stressed I don't know... plus I only found that out by snooping on his email, I know, I'm so bad!). Also DH told me yesterday that he doesn't know if he wants to continue on and do IUI again. Well buddy, you have one week to change your mind! AF is scheduled to come by soon and I want to be ready to go at it right away. However, if he's not ready, I'm not too sure what I can do...
Overall I am feeling SO much better! My moods and emotions have leveled out finally. I think I have lost a ton of weight. It might just be bloat from the pregnancy and drugs, but whatever it is, I feel WAY better about myself. (I'm kind of dreading going back on the drugs in the future). I have a tan too and that always helps you look/feel better. We are eating healthy and I am exercising regularly again. I have energy to get through most of the day (a few kicks of caffeine always help) and I'm finally feeling social again. It is so nice to feel normal again!
BTW, did anyone see that movie "Friends with Kids?" We watched it last night and the preview made it look like it was a great movie for infertiles who have to put up with all the crap that people with kids display. But I was pretty disappointed upon watching it. There were some great, funny parts BUT the two friends friggin' decides to have sex with one another and share their baby 50%... AND THEY GET PREGNANT ON THE FIRST TRY! It was supposed to kind draw attention to the fact that raising a baby IS hard, and those who think they can have it all (happy marriage, good kids, peaceful life)... can't. Overall though, I was just quite offended by it all. Any other thoughts?
I hope your husband makes up his mind soon, too - and it better be to proceed with the IUI!
ReplyDeleteI saw Friends with Kids and was also very disappointed with it. It's so frustrating and discouraging to see so many movies and TV shows portray pregnancy as something that happens easily once you decide to do it - no matter what your age. The Switch and The Backup Plan were equally aggravating. *sigh* Why can't Hollywood address infertility properly? Keiko at The Infertility Voice recently wrote a blog post that touched on that: http://theinfertilityvoice.com/2012/07/sorry-disney-wishing-a-child-into-existence-doesnt-cure-infertility/
Hey, I just wanted to share some thoughts about my husbands post miscarraige reactions. Right about the time I started coming out of my haze, my husband started 'acting out' for lack of a better word. I was finally feeling slightly human again and I was frustrated by his moodiness, and frustrations. We struggled for about a week before we saw our marraige counselor who helped us realize that it was his way of grieving. He was so busy taking care of me, that until I was okay, he couldn't really process his feelings. It may not be the same, but looking at it in that way really helped me to have patience and understanding instead of frustration.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you.
I haven't seen the movie, but almost everyone I've talked to said that they thought it would make them feel better (about having kids, about not having kids, about being infertile, whatever) about their situation - but it disappointed them.
ReplyDeleteI hope that today is a little bit brighter with your husband. I'll be thinking of you as your next cycle approaches.
Hi..I saw your recent post in my newsfeed, and see it's gone. Just wanted to say that even though I haven't been leaving comments lately, I'm still reading and thinking of you. I hope you two are able to talk things out and come to an understanding of eachother. Sending you some hugs!!
ReplyDeleteI haven't seen it yet, but it's on my list. Thanks for the heads up. Glad you are feeling better and I hope you can come to a decision about the IUI that suits you both.
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